Many people who start to meditate have relatively soon beautiful experiences. But then, against all expectations, it often gets more difficult. And it is difficult for people to understand why.
So let´s have a look what is happening here. What are we looking for in Meditation? We often look for peace, a calm state, relaxation. Maybe even we hope to get more happy.
And there we already have gone wrong. Meditation means to be conscious, to be aware of what´s appearing in our perceptions, in our body, in our emotions in a given moment. Without choosing, without rejecting, without clinging. It means to witness what is coming and how it is leaving. The picture that shows this most clearly is the picture of a mirror. A mirror simply reflects what is in front of it. It doesn´t rejcet, it doesn´t hold on, it doesn´t judge. When we find this attitude, we will get more peaceful, calmer. But not because we want that. It happens because we don´t choose. If we want peace, we struggle with tension, we reject fear, or emotions, or sexual wanting. Because they appear to be what takes the peace away from us. But this is not true. What takes peace away from us is our fighting.
A beautiful old Zen story is exactly about that. A disciple asks the Master: “Master, how do we get free from the need to eat and drink?” The master replies:”By eating and drinking!”
But how is that connected with the experience of oneness? When you look at peoples´ motivations for meditation, first often you meet a layer of what people don´t want anymore. It takes already more insight to be clear about that what meditation can give is simply awareness, consciousness. This is not a promise of happiness, relaxation or peace. But what it implies is, that slowly, gradually, as we learn hot to rest in this state, in this attitude, we struggle less with the world. We witness more, we struggle less. And with this stepping out of struggling a new state starts to manifest. Oneness. We feel to be part of existence, we are not clinging to certain expressions of life, and we are not rejecting other expressions of life. And we feel one with life, with existence.
This is a beautiful state. Experienced meditators know this space. One could also call this open awareness. Our awareness is not directed, it is not limited. It spreads out openly. We are relaxed, and awake.
Now, we also have a mind, a personality. And this mind has certain structures, certain ways of functioning. Fighting our mind will not create meditation. Osho said: You can not go into meditation from a negative mind, first you need to transform your negative mind into a positive mind. And only from a positive mind you can move into No-Mind. And by looking into his eyes from one meter distance I can tell you, this No-Mind is so real, so present, it radiates peace. You simply begin to feel blissfull.
But what does this practically mean for us? What can we do for this?
One of the basic functions of our mind is orientation in and organising of space. Our mind puts memories, imaginations to certain places, directions, distances. It does this automatically. When we understand this, we can use this for us. When we notice a tension, we can explore, where do I perceive this tension, where is the part of my “I”, which holds a certain feeling or tension? Where in space is the authority which holds objections, which clings to something? And how can I integrate these parts of my “I” and deal with these authorities inside, which have their life of their own?
Meeting these “inner authorities”, responding to their subjective realities is, what allows us to slowly move towards a space, where these inner authorities can integrate with open awareness. The space becomes less dense, and opens up. And this is where this open awareness for which we long so much can manifest.
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